Saturday, July 26, 2008
Been not updating due to my aunt using my laptop for the entire week to do her nursing project. Lots of things to be published here.
Sunday, 20th July 2008
Met hubby early in the morning, cooked some breakfast for his family. It was actually his dad's 53th birthday together with his aunt too, Cik Dewi. So mini celebration were held up in the evening.
Oh yeah, hubby bought 2 fighting fish for me and himself. Haha!
Monday, 21st July 2008
Stayed home as usual. Been raining for this couple of days. Lil bro is still sick. His fever keeps on rising and still not recover. Mum brought him to granny house to medicate him but to no avail. Pity him. Mum is getting sick too and im soo soo stressed out to look after of everything. Be it family, house chores, fucking dad's attitude, money and personal issues. Whatever it is, i hope that my brother will recover soon.
So caught up with family issues this days, including granny. Been having some conflicts with her recently bout me in my family and me with hubby. I just hate it when people starts to talk shit or disagree of me being with hubby. not only
applies to my folks only but to outside people as well. still there, gossips and breakers were trying hard to break us apart. all i can say is,
GO ON. I WONT FALL FOR YOUR WORDS. Living in this shit, another issue popped out again. Hubby need to report to Bedok HQ again. This made me felt more worried. I can't tell what will the outcome be regarding his past case. Argh!! Im in deep stress!!!
Tuesday, 22nd July 2008
Lil brother was sent to hospital due to his high fever. Mum felt that something was not right. So dad sent us to KKH and i accompany mum to check on him. Luckily he's not that serious. He had some bacteria in his blood which made him had high fever. But he look so weak and pitiful. Hubby came later on and bought some food for us and after buying the medications, we cabbed home. Then, me and hubby went out for a while and he bought some groceries for my family. So sweet of you sweetie.
Thursday, 24th July 2008
Its our 10th month anniversary. Instead of going out having fun, we headed to Bedok HQ to take some statement regarding some cases. Waited for hours and my mouth was non-stop uttering some prayers hoping that he will not get charge. I told myself that i swear im gonna get mad if he gets charge. Like come on, no point of launching a Yellow Ribbon Campaign if these stupid officers were busy opening up past cases to those ex-convicts that already have turn themseves into new leaf. STUPID! Hubby is so hard working, generous and kind-hearted. He really change a lot when i got to know him. After hours of waiting, hubby came out with a smile. I can't wait to know the outcome. So luckily his officer had closed the past cases and trying to help out the current case to a lighter charge. I was indeed, happy.
Thought of headed back to hubby's house to cook some dinner but family issue caught up again. Fucking dad called me, scolding me for going out accompanying hubby to bedok. Saying that brother and mum were sick at home. Like hello, you were frustrated because there was no food at home, didn't bother bout mum. And now you're blaming me for going out for only 3hrs?! I shouted and spitting out vulgarities to my parents on the phone in the public-train. So much special on my aniversary. I apologized hubby for not spending time with him cause i really have to go home. I was like in the centre. Don't know what to do. Thank hubby that he understands my situation. So i was at home for the rest of the day with a long face. Dad was like totally no manace. He don't seems to talk nicely to me. Just because i don't fight back, he can easily step on my head?!
I HATE DAD!!!
Like wise, crying to myself in the room. I don't wanna disturb hubby cause he was sleeping, had a slight fever. But i still talk to him as usual, but sharing my problems to him. I just feel like running away and get a new life on my own!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
So yesterday after mum off from work, we went out for dinner. It's mum's 39th Birthday. Sis came and bought her a pink long sleve blouse that she bought the day before. Mum was excited that she insist of wearing it with her new jeans. Feeling2 da kurus katakan...
We headed down for dinner at my previous workplace, Fish n Co glasshouse. Mum was amazed by the dining environment and of course, the live band. Mum's enjoyment with the live band was pathetic. She would just stare at Abg Rafee as he sangs some sentimental songs. As usual, sis never fail to embarrass her in public. After our main course, i instructed my coolest manager, Eric, to do a birthday wrap for my mum. Mum was embarrassed by then cause everyone was looking at her. So she got herself a free scoop of ice-cream. HAHA.
Back at home...
Wake up early and feeling down. Me and hubby been not talking much this days. So issues were held up again which i don't wish to publish here. But all i want him to know that i love him soo much that no one had ever cross my mind. Sometimes he don't seems to see that. His perception is always me having an affair behind his back. But deep down inside ive been loving him full heartedly and for now, im missing him soo much as we hardly see each other even on saturdays. He's too busy with his current job. Maybe this distance had lead us to many unwanted arguments. But hubby, the truth is, i miss you a lot..
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Met Hubby in the evening last minute as i was so tension at home. So waited for him til he's off from work. Hubby's been working so hard lately from morning till night. Pity him that he injured both of his feet with heavy stuff. After i recovered from my fever, he had it next. Be it sick or injured, he forced himself to work. Hubby's such a workaholic. He wanted soo much to be promoted after what his boss has discussed with him. We did not talk for long on the phone, as i want him to have sufficient rest after so much of hard work. No matter how sick and tired he is, he is always there for me. Thank you soo much for being there with me hubby.
I love you so much!
Get well soon..
perhaps, waiting for surprises on this 10 Monthniversary...Labels: I need a HAIR REBONDING SoON
Monday, July 14, 2008
I've been having high fever for the past 4 days and been stucked in the room the whole entire day. the feeling was terrible. i had bad backache, high fever and headache. And whenever im sick, i can feel like im going to face something bad very soon.
Firstly, i had arguments with hubby, but things had settled out accordingly. Secondly, i was very very upset that i was not told that
FIESTARI 2008 was actually held on 12 JULY. This event has been very important to me and i never skip attending that event eventhough i never perform. I cried watching the video from my former school.
YES, I CRIED. Watching or performing this traditional dance was like a blood flowing in my body. My tears tend to roll furiously as i was actually wearing my training shirt while watching the video. How i wish to watch it live or even have the chance to perform again. Yes people can say i went off half way but the rason why i went off because
SOME PEOPLE are hurting me directly during my training days. It pulls me down so much that it was hard for me to focus and work teamly with others. By then, i often got pick up by others and since i can't perform, at least, PEOPLE, why can't u guys invite me down?? Why am i always care for others but not people care for me? Recalling the past, when everything was fine, everything works so smoothly with you guys. And the most unforgetable part was, having dinner at Youth Park, treating you guys satay and etc. Dance was crazy yet fun. So fun that i really put my heart and soul in this group, that i dare to face critics and sacrifice my time for dance. But no more for me now... I wish my late aunty is still here to guiding my passion..
Thirdly, this really mean to you GF. Yeah, first of all, u don't even gave me a msg regarding the FIESTARI, eventhough we have not contacted, but at least you can inform. I was surprise that you showed up at the competiton. I thought, you told me before that, you're already in another dance group in conjuction with your dearest boifee music group that you claimed that you have no time for our group? Secondly, well i know its your birthday and i clearly knew that i
DID NOT WISH YOU but u told my hubby that i did? and the reason why he msg you because its only on behalf, its not a wish from him. And you was like, "aww..
U ada simpan number
ME.." Ouh peleease!!! He was bursting with laughter when you replied that way. Thirdly, the reason why i don't even care to wish you cause you don't even did it on my bdae itself.
Worstly, you went out with 'Spongebob' instead of coming down to my bdae pit which you promise to ton over and you gave me stupid reason that you don't have money to come but i don't understand how you can went out window shop with him on my bdae. Yes, you came later on, but that was at 8pm. After i spoke to your mum and she was the one who bring you down to my pit. If i never did, you won't be there gf. You too off your phone on my bdae, no msg from you and so i guess you don't deserve to receive a wish from me. U Know what, our friendship is over. Not only because of this, but other personal issues as well that related between me, you and my hubby. Think hard gerl.
Last but not least,
this is my blog.
I can do whatever i want, whatever i want to say. And even whatever pictures that i want to put up. So
MS/MR STRANGER,
i don't give a damn on your comment cause im proud what i am now and i don't feel insulted.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Boredom strikes me now..as i've been staring at the screen of my laptop for the past 2 hours. Earlier on, accompanied hubby for an interview somewhere in amk. then headed back to my neighbouring blocks to have a chat. discussing bout this current issue that we're facing through. Talking bout how this matter shall rest and how must we overcome.
Tears started to rolled down our cheeks everytime we talked about things that wil tun out to be bad.. yeah, and the best thing is, my dad so us together and he was like, "don't do this!" i was like, skejap bapak aku suruh kahwin, skejap jgn jumpa. Crazy old buddha!
Hubby decided to wait for me the staircase in case anything happen that make me feel like run away again. about an hour later, i met him again and he went off. So for now, i locked myself in the room staring my laptop. hubby is still not home yet as he with his biker boys outside. waiting for his phone call..
and to my dearest danzie yayah, thanks for the encouragement babe. touching la seyh.. love ya! niwae, i felt so relax and calm everytime i listened to my favourite traditional songs especially the rentra zapin and the hayunan gempak. GOSH! I miss dancing!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Sorry for not updating my dearest effa.. Currently being held up by so many issues-PERSONALLY RATED. Well i guess i need sometime at home. i need a total time off for a moment. I felt very lethargic this days due to my overwork at Prudential. So sickening that i've decided to leve that job. Working long hours with little pay. So i get into Forever 21 but i did not turn up to work. I think im not that ready yet to be exposed! haha.. im sick with everything.. be it family nor my life or even outside.
i don't understand why people always judge by looks and money but not by the heart. money does not buy happiness. and looks does not proof that one's is loyal. i felt insulted, deeply, when folks treat me like rubbish. like as if what i did is always wrong. like what i do is always a sin to them. but the truth is, they don't even know what i am into and what i am feeling. and to them, im lost with a world full of freedom. but honestly i declare, im a nobody and i do not have many friends that i can easily adrift with. but why must they think that im a spoil brat??? just because im with tattooed guy???
to people out there, don't judge a book by its cover. to my fucking folks that im not happy with, im happy with who im with. and im still happy that i have a few friends. at least they understand me well then u folks do. tk abes2 have this perception that im adrift. but the fact is that im still searching for ways that can rectify this matter with you folks. he himself too have prove so much to you folks that he is not what you folks thought. and please, if you folks are not happy with it, tell us straight at our faces! not with someone out there which does not belong to our family. you folks are being selfish, just think for yourself but not my feelings. and the reason why i always never return home cause i seeking for some peace in my mind. haiz.... dearest folks,
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!and as promised regards to my anniversary prezzie pics, here as follows..
heart box with 24 boats
our frame
scrapbook cover page
thanks hubby for this sweet lil thang, love you hubby!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Last saturday was full of fun. Hubby and i reached east coast at 9pm. The carpark was very full due to the mini movie and fireworks that evening. Furthermore, the area was already renovated and many interesting activities were carried out there. So my friends were already there when we reached. I was excited to see them and miss them a lot.
We get our stomach filled up and then hubby and erni's bf when geylang to bought some durians and mata kuching. Haha! Weird rite?? So when they returned, a few of Shah's mates were there too and we chilled out till late, cracking with stupid jokes that Shah put up. As usual, we listened to Jo's ghost stories and at the same time scaring the girls out at night.
Not to forget,
thanks to hubby and Shah for making out the toilet prank that night!So we lepaking till we never realised it was already 5am. At 7.30am we girls and the rest of Shah's friends jumped into the sea and had a great so called 'morning shower' as the tide was high. So after packing up and everything, we headed to Changi for breakfast.
And finally! I managed to get myself into Forever 21 at Wisma Atria. Will be starting soon, next monday. Yipee!
Labels* make-ups and tops are to be bought. beware hubby, you'll be surprised!
