Saturday, August 30, 2008
Its left with 2 more days to fasting month and im not sure i can fast or not. Been eating alot this days. I realised my appetite has increased. And i also realise im getting a bit plummer. But who cares?
Another thing is, i don't fell like celebrating raya this year but im looking forward for the bazaar geylang. Weird. I've not yet make any plannings yet on what i wanna wear for this year raya with hubby. However, can i possibly skip the ferst day of raya?? Hahas.
Nothing much though.. As usual boredom strikes whole day and i always spent my day sleeping. Till here then.
Labels: im craving for KFC's Chicken Salad
Thursday, August 28, 2008
I got so frustrated with my wireless broadband. The internet was damn slow and i have to wait for minutes to log into the website. Last Sunday was our 11th monthniversary and now i finally got to blog it out. This month was rather quite simple. I went over to hubby's place and bought some food for him. We spent hours of watching DVDs and joke around. At about 5pm, we left and headed to Kampong Glam to catch the Lighting Opening Ceremony.
It was pouring and hubby could'nt just get rid of touching his thick gelled hair. Met my dancers there and watched some performances by my fellow instructors from P.A and also others dancers from different groups. About 9.30pm we left. I felt kinda dizzy and felt like throwing up so then we make a move.
That was last week. This week, i felt paronoid over some issues. Im so bewildered why i have to go through so many things and crack my head every single day. I don't wanna talk much what i've discovered but just to let it out in my blog, i was in a state of total
MADNESS on what i've discovered and the thing is, the person who did that was stupid. Like as if i won't find out. I don't know if its true if its being created by the Pasir Ris guys and this Fat Bitch, but what concern most is that, im glad that i managed to break it through and finally that thing has been stop activating.
This matter brought up again and again when i discovered the email account. This matter really breaking my relationship apart. But whoever did it, i will never forgive the person cause this matter really cuts my heart alot and makes me feel more control to my relationship. I've deleted every single thing that i've discovered, but my heart is still pounding fast out of anger.
Few words to shout out,
TO THE PERSON WHO DID THAT ACCOUNT OR OWE THAT ACCOUNT, YOU ARE DROP GAWD DAMN STUPID.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
My lappy is finally with me now. But i don't have the mood to surf that much. Life has been deadly bad. Real bad.
I almost give up with everything. That i almost wanna escape from this misery life of mine. Im all on my own. I don't want to disturb hubby as he is working really hard for me and his 'junior'. Its the matter of me. On how im going to face the circumstances. One after another. 2 families from my relatives has hated me. Im now have no other people to depend on. Too many stories in my mind and i don't wish to publish it here. Everytime i think of it, it makes me feel hopeless. My explaination were all fell on deaf ears. Afterall, im the one to be blame.
This is all fate and i have to accept. I've tried my best but to no avail. My name has turn bad to all folks out there. But 1 thing that keeps me strong is when hubby reminds me this saying; 'takot kerana salah, brani kerana benar'. My dearest folks and relatives, u can choose to hate me or choose not to see my face. But 1 day, i will show u that i can live independently and raise my own family without u folks.
Im just waiting for the time for me to be disown by you. And i swear, i will live on my own with my hubby and kiddo and proof u that im capable in starting a new family without all bullshits bad-mouth that came from all of you. I swear.
Labels: im in no mood to raya this year
