Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I had completed doing one of the kuih raya just now-Sarang Semut, all time favourite kuih in my family. I rest for a while and hope to fall asleep. hubby is sleeping now, i guess so. But my heart seems feeling uneasy all the time.
My story of life is like full of ups and downs. But mostly downs. I kept locking myself in the room, to avoid from any arguments with my family. Its a everyday thing to happen. I argue a lot with people. Especially mum and sis. Im not gonna say what i normally argue, but i felt unfariness deep down in my heart. I cried most of the time seeing my life in turmoil. And i wish i have a close girl fren that can understand we gerls feel. But i don't have any. I don't have so many friends like i use to. Im not as cheerful like what i am last time. And im not as strong as last time.Instead, i often give up and give in to others and i took the blame. I don't wanna tell too much of my problems to hubby. Coz i wanna learn to be independent and learn to stand up. But every single beads of sorrows i swallowed, it goes down to my heart and bottled it tightly inside. Then rolls of tears will start to roll down my cheeks.
I knew hubby is the only person that can understand my family problem. But what if he leaves me 1 day? To whom am i gonna cry on? I really love hubby so much. That he sets my heart free and gave me the confidence to stand for my right. But im still bewildered, does he love me as much as i love him? He is my pillar of strength and i can't bare to see him go. Without him, i will definitly fall or maybe, i'll turn to back to my wild lifestyle.
Hubby, this is my first time holding a relationship to a year. This is new love chapter created in my life. Too many memories we had and if 1 day u shall leave me, our memories shall be the one that make me break down in tears. Im afraid that i can't move on. I've never love a guy as much as i love you before. Till im willing to sacrifice my pride to my family regarding Dani Adryan. I don't wish to throw coz i wanna spent my entire life with you. Tears rolling slowly as i flash back the past when we fought over a third party and about being unfaithful, i really hope it will never happen again coz im always faithful and honest to you. I don't wanna end my love just like that as i showered everything to you entirely. Without you, i will never live coz no one will understand my bottled feelings and problems except you. My family will never understands me. I really hope that you shall be with me all the time coz you are my light of my life. I hope that your plannings regarding the tying our strings will came true and have a happy life with you. I really love you a lot..
Monday, September 22, 2008
Love.
My My Hubby Rascal
Muhd Yunus Abd Rahim
we're left with few more days to our 1 year anniversary darling. unbelievable that a year has passed so fast. i will never forget every moment that we've spent together back in time. our outings, our birthday, our family gatherings and other sweet and sorrows times we shared together. hope that our love last forever. looking back to your pictures now reminds me the way you look differently when the first time i met you. im happy that we're still going on strong together despite of many obstacles that we had face.
i LOVE you, hubby.
counting down to 24 Sept 08.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Last week i spent 3 days straight going to the bazaar geylang with hubby. It was unbelievable of us going there for 3 straight days. On Monday, we went just to survey our baju raya. We will be wearing blue this year. As im not really in the mood of rayaing, i just thought of getting a simple baju kurung. At the same time, i don't wanna show my bulging stomach to people.
Monday's visit to geylang was quite renggang. Not much people. I did met some people that i know but i don't care to approach them. Went home early that nite. However the next day, we went geylang double-date with hubby's childhood fren and his girlfren. We end up bought our baju raya finally without hubby's fren. Coz they caught up with a fight out of sudden. childish.
So yeah, i bought a mini kurung and hubby bought a telok blangah kurung. I can't help teasing him wearing telok blangah kurung. It reminds me so much of the zapin dancers wearing that with samping and songkok tinggi. hahaha!!! yup, but i hate my journey back home coz i vomitted all what i've eaten earlier. Finally on wednesday, went out girlfrens; mira, ras, ayu ang mau. Like usual, everytime we meet each other we will laugh out loud most of the time. we had trouble saying the right word to each other as in, ras mention 'buntang' instead of bintang, mau mention 'pailiang' instead of pailang and hubby mention 'u, tolong gatalkn, garuk' intead of saying u, garukan, gatal.
We laugh and laugh a lot that we did not really window shop. Instead we chilled out at the playground nearby the bazaar. mau got a new name for hubby which is, 'abg pailang' and she was so hooked to it. Had a great time with them although we don't really walk in the bazaar. At about 11.15pm we trained back home.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
I
hate my family.
I
hate my life.
Outz.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
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Aslyn-That's When I Love You
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
Labels: countdown to our 1yr Anniversary
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