Wednesday, October 8, 2008
A week has past and I've discharge from KKH after my labour. Everything has settled and going back to its rightful place. So for now im resting at home to get myself alive and healthy like last time and at the same time haunting for jobs; a long term job for my future plannings. However currently hubby and family were busy doing kenduri and pekebumian for Ady Adryan and also for our safety especially my health. Hubby's family now had no issue with me nimore and at the same time giving us a helping hand.
I felt a big lost in my life. But i have to be strong. And at the same time be always at the bright sight cause this is the only way to defend my relationship. We have to bare the consequences but really hope that our future plannings shall be fulfilled. So for now its only the matter of prooving to them that we can support ourselves and being loyal to one another. As this days of raya month goes by, little kids and teens happily rayaing from day to night while myself, resting at home. My health is much more important for now and i believe that my happiness shall come alive again in times to come.
Im sorry for my biggest mistakes and cause trouble for everyone. But 1 thing that i shall not forget is my son, Ady Adryan. I don't mind critisism, or calling names on me. This is my blog, its my rights to say what i want. However, this is also not to boast out my problem to everyone, but this is just
a story of my life. I will never fall for what people think of me or look down on me. Important is i can proof to them that i can survive independently and support myself. I won't be repeating my mistakes nor hurt them again, but all i need is the understanding and moral support from them. Although Ady has gone, they still have to understand that he's my child, their grandson and accept this reality. I will always pray for your happiness there in your world son, and i promise that your mum and dad will be together 1 day to meet you again..
In loving memories Always...
Allahyarham Ady Adryan(Abdullah)bin Muhd Yunus
04 October 2008, 3.55pm.
Airmataku tidak henti mengalir melihatmu terpaku membisu. Mengakhiri riwayatmu yang tidak bersalah, tidak berdosa amat pahit untuk ku tempuh. Ku akan sentaiasa mengenang dirimu sayang. Jauh sekali untuk ku lupakan. Inginku memohon seribu keampunan padamu sekiranya kau tahu apa yang berlaku di sekitaranku hingga membuat jasadmu terseksa. Akan ku semadikan dirimu di dalam lubuk hatiku selamanya, dan semoga kite ditemukan kembali di sana...Anakku sayang, Ady Adryan(Abdullah)& thanks hubby for loving me as much as i love you. will always keep to our promises.
Amin.
