Friday, October 17, 2008
These days i've been dreaming of my late son. Worst of all, i heard a baby's voice said 'cak' to my ears as i was about to doze off. its like as if he is playing hide and seek with me. Everytime i see toddlers or babies, makes me think of him. He should be feeling the same way as normal kids after i delivered. But he is in another place right now.
Sometimes i miss rubbing my tummy and talk to him throughout my pregnantcy, same goes to hubby, talking rubbish to him. But eversince he left, i felt lonely. I felt like as if no one is always there with me. Whenever i am down, he is always the person that i will talk to. And now he is gone, emptyness is what im going through. Till now, i can't stop tearing to myself whenever i miss him..
Hubby and i have been trying hard to get ourselves together. He is working hard and try to get a place for us to stay. We've made some plannings already and insyaallah we will register for kursus rumahtangga next month. From there, we will slowly proceed. I've lost my precious one and i hope hubby and i will start a new life soon. Whatever it is, i will always miss my precious son...
