Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I had an interview at valley point around 2pm just now. Hubby drove me there and luckily we found our way. Here's a story that i wanted to share. This is my most, scaryiest interview i ever had. The position that i went for interview was doing secretarial work to the manager in one of the finance&insurance company. however, the interviewer was super super kerek! Luckily she's not a malay woman.
She wore a thigh-length dress with black 4 inch stilletos. I envy her stilletos a lot. Till i didn't realise that she was my interviewer. I've forgotten what she ask, but i clearly remember the way she answer me. It was like, 'then, huh-huh, what else, thats all?' Through out my interview experience, i never encounter a kerek interviewer before! But luckily she's pretty though.. Hope that i get this position soon..
My blog has been quite wordy and boring.. No pictures updated as sis is the one holding on to the camera. However, tomorrow is New Year Eve and will meeting adek bonc after her work and will be catching up with my gerls soon. If there's pictures to be updated that i shall post it. Isyak prayers!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Its Christmas Eve today and at the same time its our 15 months anniversary. Will be meeting hubby later and most probably will be heading to town. I soo wanna window shop! After so long terperap at home!
I woke up early today, did the housechores and now waiting for Cik Elly to come back to do the cooking. After cooking, do my prayers and meet hubby at admiralty. Can't wait to see him later as he has been busy working these days. The problem thing is, I don't know what to where. Its raining here and i hope town will be fine.
And yeah, 2 days ago Adek bonc slept over here and we did took some pictures. To check out the pictures, just view her blog. Haha!! Till here then, wishing Merry Christmas to all my non-muslim friends!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Yesterday went to the Singapore Zoological Garden with granny, hubby, aunty-uncle and granny's cousin from Melaka. Woke up early in the morning, prepare some breakfast and fetched hubby downstairs. We reach there at 12noon exactly and the place was very crowded. Which then i realised that, it was Sunday. Many families and tourist went there and the queue at the ticket booth was super super long.
Granny sat on a wheelchair, and pity hubby as he have to push granny throughout the whole outing. haha! Granny was surprised that the animals were freely open as she taught that all wild animals were kept in cages. Hubby purposely pushed her nearer to the bushes and she was like screaming afraid that the animals might just jump out. Then off to the Kidzworld Splash for the kids to have a swim after the long hot scroll. Me and hubby settled granny there, and then we went to the reptile garden on our own. Along the way met Kak Ana,(hubby's cousin)and her family and she congratulate us for our wedding.
Nothing much at the snakes area, then we went back to the Kidzworld which by then we were pissed with granny. She wanted to sit at the shaded area so much which is at KFC. But the place were fully occupied and she insist. At about 5pm, we left the zoo.
Headed to Al-Ameen(woodgrove)for dinner and then van-ed home.
Hubby chilled out here for awhile to check out some bridal stuff in the internet. Had a talk with my youngest uncle and then left home. There were no pictures updated as my digi camera is at ang mo kio. Till here then, going to bathe now. Haha!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Its just a quick post today, as my granny's house were upside down. Granny's cousin from Melaka came here last night and lots of food me and Cik Elly have to prepare. The kitchen is in a mess and it's an eyesore to me. Granny's cousin had 5 kids and its killing me now. They were so noisy and they ran here and there. They will be staying here for 2 nights!
Regarding yesterday tagboard, i just can't stand anymore with people tagging like one after another. Thus, those names in the tagboard were unfamiliar to me. But to those who concerns me, i really appreciate alot though i don't really know you guys. So after much thought, i decided to remove my tagboard as some people kinda misused it! Let the better be as im not involve and there's nothing to do with me. If they wanted us so much, or really want to pull my hubby so much, why bother me? Let them settle by themselves. Hating or gossiping me will just make me
famous.
Haiz... i've been loosing weight this month. The pills that Kak Mawar bought for me is really effective! My tummy is flattening and i lose some appetite to eat. Can't wait for next week as i had rewang at hubby's relative wedding and Kak Imah & Abg Man's solemnisation this 27th..
Last but not least, i miss my night outs with my gerls and i don't think so i can make it for Ernidah's pit on this 22nd. Sorry gerl! Catch up soon!!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Im just dissappointed that my blog and my tagboard has exposed to all kinds of conversations with many different types of people that i don't know. Its my blog, i have the rights to publish what i feel as whenever i like. People might find me minah or what, but to people who are close to me knows how my personal life is. Im just a simple girl with sensitive feelings. Im soft hearted and im sick. I don't want to publish what sickness i had. But some people know.
Problems after one another. People who talk or bad mouth about me doesn't know how pressurizing i was. Together with my illness; i have no confident if i can face this. Both me and hubby had changed to be better, but no one appreciate it. He might be rascal or cause problems to others in the past, but he has change. I keep on eye on every deed that he make. And i never before snatched him from anybody else. People can just bring up fake stories to pull me down.
Im sick and tired of what people been saying bout me and my life. I almost give up. I had no families to support me. Sometimes i felt like ending my life which i half way did. My granny have been comparing me and my sister so many times, and also with other girls she knew. That they were so much better than me. Every word she said will just drop my self-esteem, and it really pierce me in the heart. Plus the threathening that the hate tagger gives everyday.
I felt like im the victim to all this. Why? Why me? I don't want to end up in IMH. I had my pills with me but it doesn't go away.. Why can't people just let me live??.. Im totally depressed and mentally hurt. Why can't people just give me the chance to change to be better??
I just feel like my marriage causes red-eyed to people. Be it family members nor others outside. But i believe in whatever i do and it has to be go on. Its only the support is not there for me..
You can call the police or lawyers to get whatever you think its yours. But im not involve in whatever cases you shall bring up. Its between you, him and his family. Or maybe u can shoot my name up to the police. By all means. I have my own ways to rectify whatever cases you bring up about me. I might be young and soft hearted, but im still able to stand for myself.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Im like as if drowning in tears. Struggling so hard to let myself breathe the calm air. My mind were shut and i don't know what to do or what to think. I just need space, peace and an opportunity for me to live on my own, my way..
As usual i woke up early in the morning everyday, sent Dewi cuzzie to tuition, bought some breakfast and then do some house chores. Together with everyday non-stop lecturing by granny bout my life. Im in a mist of giving up my life here, feels like going away where nobody knows where i am. I just want to be alone.. I don't want to trouble anybody else in my entire family. I just wanna go away...
Every night, I think of my past and future life might be.. I learn alot and i don't understand why they just can't see the change of me. The change of becoming to a better person. Sometimes, i miss my hommie, the times when my siblings and i were still awake late at night, playing games with my lil brother, having late supper with my rebellious sister, and squeezing my mum's bre**t. Haha! tats too much! Now things over here were so much different. I had no one to talk to unless my Indonesian aunty were around. I cried most of the time whenever im alone, and counting the days to the day that i shall regain my happiness.
Haiz... i don't know how long can i tolerate and at the same time, thinking of where can i stay for like another 3 months..
Friday, December 12, 2008
Currently staying at granny's place. Most probably till the day of my solemnisation. Down with too many problems at home and miscommunications. Its tough but im trying to cope and learn it. Though living with emptyness and unsecure. I can't explained how much im pressurized right now, and sometimes it pulls me down too much. Especially my emotional side. I cried every night in granny's room, praying for a better tomorrow. I hope i will be able to go on strong with full tolerance. Sometimes, i miss my hommie.. How i can live freely there, had siblings to talk to. Over here its pretty much different. I need a job asap to help myself in my expenditures and unpaid bills. This shall be a new beginning for me and live in a simple religious life. I love my new set of telekung which my granny bought for me. Changing into new me, with heart full of loneliness, pain and unsecure...
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
(Tagboard Ignored) Went Joo Chiat last sunday with hubby, Kak Mawar, Kak Dyana and the kids. Kak Mawar came to amk fetched me and hubby to rent a car at amk industrial park then went to her crib to fetch the rest. Baby Ryan was grown up already, he's bigger than his sister, Sarah. Feed hubby and Baby Ryan first, then off we went to Joo Chiat. They wanted to buy some cloths and tempah there at the same time. Their eldest sister will be getting married this end of the month so their there to buy some preparations.
The sisters will be wearing purple on that day. As they were choosing their stuff, i noticed many passerbys and shoppers loves to play with Baby Ryan and his sister. Maybe because he is chubby and fair.. I never took any photos throughout the outing as my digi cam's battery was flat. Then Kak Mawar bought me a pink transparent clothes from Bimla for me to wear on Kak Imah solemnisation. After which, they tempah their clothing with all measurements taken like about 2hrs ater, hubby and Abg Acit(Kak Mawar's hubby)arrived. Next we headed to one of the jewellery shop at level 1. Haha, me like usual, jump with excitement and pushed hubby in. I actually prefer gold more to white golds. I took a look at some rings and i decided to change my mind of taking the SK jewelery. haha. I think i fell in love with one of the 18 carat ring at that shop. Yup2. Im so want that ring!
We then walked into a jamu shop, and to my surprised, Kak Mawar bought for me a medication called 'Shiffa'. Its good for woman after labour actually. They did so much of shopping till they never realise its already 8pm. Next we went to vivo as Abg Acit wanted to but a pair of shoes and a top over there. We went into separate ways at vivo. We went into Courts where they bought a DVD set and a Hi-Fi set for the price of less than $400. Its better to shop during Christmas season seyy.. We meet up back than off to Jalan Kayu for late dinner cum supper. During the journey to Jalan Kayu, i was shocked by the way Baby Ryan superb active. I can't believe he was like head-banging in the car while hubby played an Indonesia band song. Haha.. He was so damn cute and i regret that i can't took a video of him.
The moment we got there, Kak Dyana ordered a total of 9 dish for us. Our stomachs were so full that we have to packed up some unfinised food. We finished our supper at around 12am after which we sent Kak Mawar, Kak Dyana and the kids home. I thanked them for the treat, kissed the kids and bidded them goodbye. Car-ed home at 1am.
Tags Repliedainsadad: hey! how are eu? thanks for linking me. heard eu are going to get married by 2009? all the best ya! stay pretty always!intan: hey! Im fine here.. Thought you duno me.. Yup2 insyallah bulan 4 ni, right after our birthday. ni mesti dgr dari titi atau roy kn?.. thanks for the wishes though!
Whatmyname♥: Blog ni, M E R E P E K N Y E.intan: tk payah nk tukar2 name la ehk. Klau da tahu merepek, knp baca? Da merepek sangat jgn visit blog ni agi k. Get lost and MYOB with ur small boy. Bitch.
marnie: hey! stay cool n jus heckcare wit tat hatetaggers. lamer2 drng yg bingit sndr kalau kaudiam..haha! biar dier penat sndr..sampai bler kan...anw wish u all the best yah in 2009!intan: Hehe.. thanks for ur wishes marnie.. yup2, hate taggers are like that. I also duno what they gain of doing this.
and my tagboard continued to flood with stupid hate tagger again and i refuse to keep it. What ever it is, to the hate tagger, try harder as nothing shall falls us apart and there are always people who supports our relationship. What's the use of being strong at words but weak in actions? So yeah, TRY HARDERLabels: Bitch, i wish i can show u if im a boyanese or not. Dun any how called me a boyanese when my ic does not stated boyan there.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
My dearest blogmates,
As you can see my hate tagger gave lots of stories in my tag board yesterday about my hubby. I assume she's the most hated hate tagger i guess; coz her fake stories were growing and growing in my blog. well, i knew she's someone who people say, "omg its her! beware of her! she's huge brave and bitchy bitch here!" so what? i didn't matter she's huge or what. She's just huge because of her fats and her mouth. U know what mates, she make out fake stories to me, just to make me and hubby fight alot and make me give up in him. But do you think its gonna happen bitch? And your fake stories, u think all of us here believe?? Everyone knows that im getting married to a guy that im faithfully in love whom you once cheated him before over a mat motor or other matreps something like that. And my closest gerls knows who you are and what are you into me. Well, you put some shame for me in my tagboard so do i. In here, my own personal blog, i put some shame to you. Get a life ar bitch. U have no other people to bombard izit? Or are you running out of guys? U're turning 20 soon and you behave worst then me, whom you called YP once upon a time. But the real thing is, whose YP? Isit me, you or you and your small boy?
I never talk or blog about issues bout gangsterism or rioting among 'baju' and other 'baju'. Its so the zaman dulu.. but since u started it first, then i began it too.
U know well how is yunus character is. Stakat berbual atau tengok tkkn uat die jatoh. Kau nk, dtg kat dia and tgk sape jatoh. Klau dia jatoh kau da cukup baik bagi dia. Im sure kau slalu dgr line ni dulu bla kau maceh sama die. So u wanted it soo much, yunus tk da heran ngn getak kau. Lagi2 ngn budak2 Jam YP kau. Kau nk jual baju kat blog aku, kau amek ni. Tk da sape2 heran ngn ape2 baju YP kau yang maceh tk cukup umur!If you still wanna disturb me here and talks about me and yunus, i will publish stories about yourself in my blog to hit you back.Peduli ape kau 20 tahun? Tapi perangai mcm YP agi uat pe? Tk abes2 nk mengikis laki aku yg kau kata ape?, long dick? Biar la dia ade long dick, kau tk puas kat ngn small boy kau punya? Kau nk rosak kn majlis aku nanti? Silakn. Kau tahu family sape kau cuba sentuh tengok ape jadi.
And this is my blog, i can say what ever i want. Pesanan dari yunusCome show me your Omega boys. Seribu batu tkkn ku lari. Klau yg dtg jam yp sori ar tk interested nk kasi ar masih setahun jagung. Kita tgk sape world peace k. im fuckin sure knw mana jantan ko lepak so try me k zuraidah. Ex ko shah yg tua nk mampos aku berani gegar pe lagi ni budak hingus. Nvr did intan penah kutok ko bt cara ko la uat dia kuar kn kata kesat. reminder, u mess wit the best than shall die like the rest.Get a life,
FAT BITCH!
Friday, December 5, 2008
I always came across with hate taggers in some of my friends blog saying bad things about them. Trying to break their relationship apart and putting shame towards them in their blogs. And guess what, now its my turn. Haha.. Credits to
THE EX.THE EXHey fat bitch! WELCOME TO MY BLOG. First thing first, i knew who you are, as u came across in hubby and mine friendster. I don't care where u got my blog url, coz i don't even give a damn. Live a life ar bitch! U said u meet him? U said i called him but the true fact is i don't even gave a call this afternoon it was he the one that called me first. U gave different description of what he wears to work and worst of all, u said my service was not good enough?? haha.. Kalau tk bagus tkkn tk kluar anak satu kan... What a great lies u got there. Easy to say la eh, all this FAT lies u created are all based on your jealousy as im getting married to your ex-bf that u cheated him before. Well, my wedding were all well-planned with both parties, and now u wanna show up ur stories?? Its too late and they won't be entertaining you gerl. Why don't you just take good care of ur BIG FAT WHITE ASS and ur 16 YEAR OLD BF! Try harder bitch, yunus and i will never fall for your words. U knew him well so do i. Btw, if u knew him that well, u will probably know what will be the consequences if someone disturb his life. Go on bitch, nothing will tear us apart! Thanks for dropping by!
YESTERDAYWent out with hubby yesterday as he worked from noon till 11pm on the day after the counselling. We did not spent much time on wednesday, so hubby took off yesterday to spent the whole day with me. We went window shop at Bugis, then to City Hall. We had great day talking and laughing with 1 another. Then we thought of surveying some wedding jewelleries at Marina Square. We went into Soo Kee at first, but its too expensive. Then i pushed him into SK Jewellery, 1 of his favourite jewellery shop where he bought me a whitegold necklace for my birthday. We realised that SK is much more valueble compared to Soo Kee. The salesman recommended us this set of wedding jewelleries;a necklace, ring,a pair of earings for me and a ring for him.
lovely isn't it?? unfortunately i can't get the picture of his ring.We will be going there again next week to deposit some cash, and hopefully by March we will be getting that set home. Hee! I was so happy! Jewelleries are my all time lovers!
WEDNESDAY 3 DECEMBER 2008Wednesday morning i had pre-marriage counselling at Bukit Batok PPIS. Both me and hubby plus our parents need to come down too. And guess what, i fell at the carpark and my left feet bleeded. I don't know how i fell and the pain was excruciating. The moment we reached there, hubby and his dad was already arrived. Hubby and i filled up a form and then i was first to be counselled. During the counselling, i told every single thing from the start. Especially the way my dad buried my child. After my parents turn, mom was crying and dad's face was angry. I think the counsellor presured them too much. After the counselling has ended, both hubby and me will be attendind a course in January before we can take kursus rumahtangga. Headed back home then, with black face.
MONDAY 1 DECEMBER 2008On last monday, adek bonc and me went out at a last minute thingin. We felt bored and pissed at home, as grandma can't stop nagging. Since adek bonc is not working, we decided to head to town for a window shopping. I know its monday, kinda boring but we just wanna go out so much. Earlier on, hubby told me that Azmie rented a car and wanted to go rounding with us. So called him up and meet up. This time, the rented car was a bit 'waprak'. Its an old car. But when i went in, the music blasted so loud, and the steering was change to momo' steering almost like a sports car in the inside.
Adek bonc bought a sling bag at far east, and then we waited for Yayah to knock off at Tangs. Afterwards, headed to Bukit Batok for supper at Aliff coffeshop. Adek bonc treated us supper which cost nearly $20.(orang da gaji..)We still in the mood of going out, so adek bonc and hubby bought some snacks and cards and then we headed to Changi Beach to relax ourselves. We stayed there till about 3am. Before we left, i asked hubby to coach me how to drive at the carpark. I always wanted a car licence so much as i feel like its cool to have your own car and its very convenient. I turned 1 round at the carpark and then its Azmie's turn. haha!
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