Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Im just dissappointed that my blog and my tagboard has exposed to all kinds of conversations with many different types of people that i don't know. Its my blog, i have the rights to publish what i feel as whenever i like. People might find me minah or what, but to people who are close to me knows how my personal life is. Im just a simple girl with sensitive feelings. Im soft hearted and im sick. I don't want to publish what sickness i had. But some people know.
Problems after one another. People who talk or bad mouth about me doesn't know how pressurizing i was. Together with my illness; i have no confident if i can face this. Both me and hubby had changed to be better, but no one appreciate it. He might be rascal or cause problems to others in the past, but he has change. I keep on eye on every deed that he make. And i never before snatched him from anybody else. People can just bring up fake stories to pull me down.
Im sick and tired of what people been saying bout me and my life. I almost give up. I had no families to support me. Sometimes i felt like ending my life which i half way did. My granny have been comparing me and my sister so many times, and also with other girls she knew. That they were so much better than me. Every word she said will just drop my self-esteem, and it really pierce me in the heart. Plus the threathening that the hate tagger gives everyday.
I felt like im the victim to all this. Why? Why me? I don't want to end up in IMH. I had my pills with me but it doesn't go away.. Why can't people just let me live??.. Im totally depressed and mentally hurt. Why can't people just give me the chance to change to be better??
I just feel like my marriage causes red-eyed to people. Be it family members nor others outside. But i believe in whatever i do and it has to be go on. Its only the support is not there for me..
You can call the police or lawyers to get whatever you think its yours. But im not involve in whatever cases you shall bring up. Its between you, him and his family. Or maybe u can shoot my name up to the police. By all means. I have my own ways to rectify whatever cases you bring up about me. I might be young and soft hearted, but im still able to stand for myself.
