tell me how long can i tolerate all this shit? all this talkings that never seem

to stop. everyday, every minute of my breath, its all about ME.

tell me how sure are you that every single word that came out from your mouth

are true. or maybe will it hapen like as though you can predict MY FUTURE.

& tell me when can all of you stop this talkings and give me PEACE.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND why is there for you to compare me and my other siblings or others

about my life?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND why MONEY captures most into your eyes.

& I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY can't i make a decision on MY OWN.

every evening, i shed tears by the window recalling what people say about me. like they say,

"what's past, is past". but why keep barging on again? my heart breaks when you compared me

and sis, that she's much much better than me. that she knows how to earn money,

she knows how to give her money to her parents, that she is much

more cleverer than you. much more reliable than you.

than what's the point of me being here?? u should just ask her stay with you than keeping me. same goes to another person, what's the point of you saying that you love me

when you walked out without a word when i needed you the most??

I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

at least im not rude to you, i know how to cook, eventhough i don't earn much but i did my part

to look after your child like i used to. i cleaned your bed, i listened to your problems, i

don't asked much or demand much from you. & i SCORED WELL in studies throughout my years in secondary school and in ITE. i DID NOT FLUNG my examinations. or just because

i rather quiet and never yelled back to both of you, you can just keep barging

on my life and start to compare me all the time?

IT'S TOO LATE to say that you love me or care for me. coz when i were in state of struggling

for my life, where were all of you? till i depended on someone outside, whom i found a person that see me cry for all of you. and now you all blame that i cared that person much more that my own flesh and blood. i felt myself USELESS everytime this talkings start to play into

my ears. No one see how much i suffered inside over different different matters that is happening to my surroundings. you all can say that im a WILD CHILD. but hopefully you all shall see this WILD CHILD will be looking after you 1 day.

WHATEVER REMARKS on me, its up to you to decide. i am who i am. in other words, this is the reason why i chose to live on my own for now. coz there is no point living with many people

but people keeps on talking about me. i won't utter a single objection to all of you coz i still have the RESPECT towards all of you. all i want you all to see is,

YOUR WORDS made me TURN LIKE THIS.